cerebral discharge

Again.

Technically, I still have a job for a few weeks or months, but not for very long. We just found out yesterday that the budget cuts from the state mean that Amy and I will be out of work. It’s unclear whether our company will be staying open, but at the very least, Amy and I will be out of work very soon.

We’re not sure whether we’ll stay in Phoenix or move back to Indiana. Neither option will be cheap. If we stay here, we both need to get full-time jobs, but the jobs we’re looking at pay less than what we currently make, and we’d have to both drive to work every day. That means buying another car, paying for gas, reducing our health care, and probably moving into a smaller apartment in a worse neighborhood, and paying our current apartment complex $1000 to buy ourselves out of our lease. If we go back to Indiana, we’ll have to find someone to let us live with them until November, when our house will be free from renters, still pay $1000 to buy ourselves out of the lease, still buy another car for when we get jobs at home, and pay for a moving truck to get our stuff home.

It seems right now that moving back to Indiana will actually be cheaper. On top of that, we’ll have all of our close friends nearby, Amy’s family will be close, and I could even finish my degree.

What I don’t understand is why God wanted us to come here if he’s just sending us back to Indiana. It’s been a good experience, but I honestly can’t afford good experiences right now. Amy and I are not in a place financially to be able to afford any more good experiences. The move to Phoenix was supposed to mean saving money for us, not losing another 5 grand. After this experience, we’re going to be just a few steps away from declaring bankruptcy. Cool, huh?