cerebral discharge

Haven’t posted in a while. (i know i’ve done a post commenting about how often people start a blog post with that phrase.)

I’ve been thinking. There’s all this stuff I believe in, and I want to express them to people. It’s not hard for people to observe me or talk to me and get a feel for things I believe in, but there are so many good ones, I can’t think of a reason why I shouldn’t make a blog post about each one. No guarantee I’ll keep this up, or anything, but I’m launching today with “a creator.”

I was brought up in a christian family, and I was taught to believe in a creator God. I’ve gone all sorts of different directions in a lot of things I’ve beleived, and I’ve been willing to challenge every belief I was raised with, and this is one that hasn’t gone anywhere.

I don’t have a huge problem with the idea of evolution (small e) because it clearly happens on a small level. But I don’t accept The Theory of Evolution because it’s so convoluted and contrived. I love when I see a new “missing link” fossil that’s supposed to somehow explain it all for me. Invariably, it’s simply a species that we don’t have anymore that has characteristics of two other species. I’m supposed to react with an “OMG, it has fingers AND a tail?!? It must be a link…” or something, but I don’t. I just see similarities. Similarities don’t prove anything about history.

I once met someone who looked JUST like me. Like, seriously, just like me. I couldn’t believe how much we looked alike. It was a little creepy. But we weren’t from even the same region of the country and had totally different family histories. We could have tricked people into thinking we were twins easily, but just because we were similar doesn’t make us the same.

But this post isn’t about why I don’t believe in Evolution. That’s ultimately an irrelevant question in the conversation of “is there a creator god or not?” conversation. A creator God could easily exist, create, and then let things do whatever they wanted from there.

What makes me beleive in a creator god is the fact that creation exists. Everything we are, and everything around us exists, and it had to come from somewhere. Everything has a source, or a cause. It makes a trail behind us for as long as time has existed. Somewhere, way back in time, maybe thousands of years, maybe millions, maybe billions, the first thing existed, and something caused/created it.

That something, I call “creator god.” Creator god has to exist without cause. That’s the first thing I can think of as an attribute for him. He is uncaused. He simply exists. He simply “is”.

I’ve heard it argued “Patrick, you’re just pushing it back one more level, but the problem still exists: “where did HE come from?”

Logically, there HAS to be something at the beginning of all this that doesn’t require a cause. That exists outside the structure of causality. I call it god.

I can’t come up with a way to understand reality that doesn’t start like that.